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I’ve been crashing the last few days for some unexplained reason. I’m not driving vehicles into solid objects but rather experiencing my body deplete its energy reserves. Last night, about an hour before chow I noticed that I was having an extremely hard time concentrating. Little bits of time were disappearing and I was wearing down quickly. I knew that I needed to eat soon but I don’t have the ability to speed up time.

We got on the bus to the chow hall and I promptly passed out and woke when we reached the parking lot. I entered, ate my food in 5 minutes, and returned to the bus to sleep for the next 40 minutes. When we got back to work I attempted to check my email and I found that I was falling asleep between messages. I knew that we would be returning to work in 40 minutes and that we would take the bus so I went back outside and passed out.

When we arrived I was a little groggy until we started working. At that point, my body found its energy and I was fine for the rest of the night. I fell asleep, at the normal time, with relative ease.

I woke up two hours early today and I haven’t been able to get back to sleep. I decided to eat something - I am never awake for what the day walkers call “lunch”. I’m not sure how this is going to affect me later. Only time will tell.

My only guess to the cause of the crashes is that is related to my diet. I am not eating enough whole grain foods (that break down slower and provide longer lasting energy) so I’m going to tweak things a bit. We’ll see how it goes.

Students from Prairie View A&M have grown tired of legislation that makes it hard for them to vote. So, as anyone should, they’ve protested their situation in a creative way.

The county government decided to offer a poll at only one location in Waller Co. Texas. As a result, the student body marched en mass to the polling place - 7 miles away. Their plan is to tie up the two voting machines for the open to close in protest of the lack of polling places. Read the article - cool stuff - way to go students!

Ok, so I still haven’t done what I set out to do on my day off but I’m getting closer to it with each passing week. I have extremely little free time on a daily basis as I have scheduled only enough time to plow through my routine. There is no extra time for anything else unless I want to cut into my sleep schedule. I do well on 6 hours of sleep but 7 is better. Unfortunately, I don’t move fast enough when I wake up and that extra hour is imperative. Jessica, on the other hand, wants 10 hours of sleep a night. I have no idea how she sleeps that much and still has enough time to do everything. Even when I am bored and have little to do sleep is always a last option for me - she is down for a nap at almost anytime of the day. Often she insists that I join her - (more…)

Sleep has been a mysterious vixen that I have been unable to catch. She has evaded me at every turn and has thwarted my every attempt to catch her. For the past few weeks I have been unable to sleep through the night.

Two nights ago I finally caught that bitch and tied her ass up. She isn’t going anywhere for the time being and I’m happy as I can be. I’ve been able to sleep through the night (or mid-morning for those day shift people) for two days straight. I forgot how refreshing it is to have full nights of sleep with no interruption. Of course, this sleep does take a little work to catch. First, I am forced to dehydrate myself after 0500 in the morning. Failure to do so will cause me to wake up with a bladder that is screaming in pain. I don’t want to wake up, get dressed, and walk to the cadillac in the cold to go to the bathroom. I shouldn’t feel like an old incontinent man - I should have full control of my bladder at all times. Second, I’ve got to wear myself out at the gym and at work. Both of these are relatively easy to do because I’d rather be swamped and not notice my shift is complete than trying to waste 12 hours. The last thing that helps me sleep is entirely dependent on others. I have one roommate that comes in from work at 1200 (I sleep until ~1400). He normally drops his stuff on the floor with little regard for how much noise it makes. This causes me great frustration and anger when he does this. I want to kill him (not really) when he does this. Sleep is my friend and he is taking her away from me. I have an incredibly hard time falling back asleep once I have been woken.

It’s about 4AM and I’m extremely tired. I’ve had a few bouts of almost passing out but I’ve been doing my best to keep my mind and body busy. If I sit still for too long I know that I’ll be a goner in no time. So, why am I up at 4AM? I’m working the 11PM-7AM shift for the next two weeks to cover a gap in coverage. The guy that normally works this shift is having oral surgery and that pretty much puts him out of commission for a week.

By now you might be wondering why I titled this post “Electoral votes of popularity”… well, there is a reason. I was obviously bored so I started to look at my Google Analytics account and I looked at the historical data. A map view of visitors is available so that you can find out where most of your visitors come from. The data is skewed because I visit my site to make updates more often than regular visitors come to read. In other words, I am probably the biggest visitor of my own site (such is my life). So, what does this have to do with electoral votes? Well, based on the map I wouldn’t get a single vote out of 8 states while the rest i have covered. Louisiana, Arkansas, Tennessee, West Virginia, Conneticut, Rhode Island, Vermont, and New Hampshire users shun my website and refuse to visit. The first few states probably have no users smart enough to turn on a computer or still have no infrastructure to hook a computer into (as in the case of Louisiana - thanks Katrina!). The rest… well, I’m not sure why the NE US finds me contrite.

But here I am, calling them out to visit me…. bunch of freaking punks.

I have not posted anything of relative substance for quite some time as I’ve been busy doing this and that… it also doesn’t help that I only have a scant few readers so I’m less inclined to actually write something. Imagine if I was recieving 1,000 visits per day instead of the 10-15 unique visitors that I get. I’m still unsure as to why I feel that I should share almost everything in this forum as opposed to not letting anyone know whats going on. I guess I feel that this forum is relatively anonymous and potentially vouyeristic. I only tell stories about things that have happened to me and about how I react to those events.

My writing style isn’t particularly refined and my stories are only so-so. Once in a while I’ll have a worthy story of note but odds are you’re bound to get the same drudge that you might here from anyone else that you might know.

I’ve been looking on and off for a part time job and I think I’m going to slam one out for the rest of the year. In other words, I’m going to work myself to sheer and utter exhausting for a few months and get ahead on things. Its going to take insane time management and will drain me every day. I know that I can do this and I know that I must do this. I still haven’t had anyone hire me yet but it may not be the job of my dreams… then again, there are few jobs most of us dream of getting save for being professional athletes or high ranking politicians. Is it odd that the only jobs we dream of getting are those that are most likely to have unwanted fans and stalkers?

After getting caught up on some things I plan to move out of my current residence into another that is slightly more spacious and that provides a few extra ammenities (a place to put a grill and a in appt washer and dryer). While those things may seem trivial, I have found that I am more than tired of going up and down the elevator in my building and fighting with the coin operated jobbies. Having a grill would be equally splendid because its one of the few cooking surfaces that I would no longer have to clean up. I’ve become fairly skilled in its operation and I would only become more skilled as opportunity increases.

Jessica (the girlfriend) is doing well save for the stress she puts herself under. She’s got quite a few things on her plate at the moment and I’m sure that I would feel quite overwhelmed. Luckily for her, as of the 23rd of this month most of those things will be done and over with (Bridezilla… err I mean her sisters wedding).

She’s on the ropes as to whether she should end her internship and finish her AA or stay there and only get a technical certificate. I think that the AA degree would only help in the end if she should get out of her career field at some point in time. The degree is in biotechnology and from what she has told me there are quite a few people with that degree and no job in the industry. I’m unsure if the degree program isn’t worth her time or if the other candidates were less than sterling. Needless to say, she’s got about as much on her plate as I have on mine. It creates a significant amount of stress on the both of us and as you can imagine we can take it out on eachother. Luckily, we know that neither partner deserves the extra (and misplaced) animosity so we’re quick to cut it off.

Ok… thats the update of sorts. Hopefully I can provide something that is actually interesting to read at a later time.

If only I could keep it up -

So, on Thursday night I spent the evening wearing a polo shirt that was provided to me as I stood directly next to the stage at a Faith Hill and Tim McGraw concert. For the evening I was a member of the security team. My only job was to be a visible presence, answer questions, and remove any fan that attempted to jump up on the stage. I only answered one question and nobody attempted to jump on the stage so it was a relatively boring evening. I’m not a fan of country music - save for Johnny Cash - so I almost fell asleep a few times. Jessica was with me and was watching from a different part of the floor. She was rather jealous of me and wished that I could have been sweat on by either one of them - I don’t quite get it. She had fun but it was an extremely long evening. If only it was music that I actually liked - Stevie Wonder would have been awesome.

Friday was another night of fun as we went to watch the Tacoma Rainiers play in a triple AAA game. I’m not a huge fan of watching baseball but when you go to the park there is a lot of other stuff to watch if you have little interest in the game. They also have two of my favorite food groups: brats and beer. I haven’t had a good brat in a while - you know, brat, bun, sour kraut, catsup ( or ketchup) - all the things that make it good. We were staying for the fireworks that were at the end of the game and I guess it was a good choice. The game was all tied up through the 9th inning and we gave up 5 runs in the top of the 10th. Three of them were from an unforced error… doh! Since the Rainiers hang out at the bottom of the standings I didn’t think they had a chance in hell of coming back from that one but a miracle happened and scored 6 runs. I was extremely tired by that point so I really didn’t care but it was one heck of an ending. There were fireworks after the game but I almost fell asleep. If I’m tired I’m willing to sleep almost anywhere.

Saturday - last night - I went to Katie’s house - she is one of Jessica’s friends. We imbibed large quantities of behavior influencing liquid. Needless to say…. I was inebriated. Good times were had by all.

The girl is making me pancakes right now - she could be a keeper. If only all of my time off of work was this enjoyable.

Last night peer pressure got the best of me. I was coerced into going out last night, on a school night, to go to the karaoke bar and engage in alcohol fueled shenanigans. While I didn’t want to spend any money while I was out I did want to spend time with other people in my class because its turns out they’re not all that bad. It takes me a while to mesh with other people and it appears that just as I’m about to leave I start to integrate with the group. Oh well, no matter, I’ll probably never see any of them in the future.
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I’ve mentioned it before, many people have said it, retired generals have called for it and now military leaders are asking for Rumsfeld to go. Decent read… slanted as you might imagine but its pretty close to what I think.

Andrew Sullivan | The Daily Dish: Fire. Rumsfeld. Now

I’ve never been an incredibly popular individual as I’ve always been one to do things on my own that are not within the social norms but I’ve always wanted some sort of mass acceptance. I write a blog on the internet and share almost everything with anyone crazy enough to come out an read it. I don’t want to make any money off of this endeavor but not paying for the hosting would be cool. Lets face it, I’m not that much more interesting than the next guy down the road but if you happen to visit this site you already know me. So, because I’m bored and I want attention from others (I have been demanding in the past haven’t I?) I’ve been searching for ways to publicize my website and blog (not that anyone cares!) If you happen to see some strange code (or links) like the one below they are just attempts at filling all of my spare time with nonsense. Lets face it, unless I start to write some incredibly amusing stories I’m not going to pull in more than the 50-100 visits a day that I get. Hell, half of those visits are probably looking for info on the book in the bible 2 Kings. I should get rid of all of the old 2kings stuff and put up two playing cards in its place. The archives tend to drive some traffic because as most people know I tend to wander about in my short missives. These articles show up in search engine results… I live a private public life. Why would anyone want to do this.

The run hasn’t forgiven me yet as I’m still feeling sore shins (shin splints) but I guess it could be worse. I could have crap knees or something like that… man would it suck to be a loser like that (yes, it was low but tongue in cheek). I’m going to an Atreyu concert tonight so I’ll be dead ass tired in the AM but I will have checked out a decent show (so I hope). The concert should give me 2-3 hours of pure cardio as the pit rages on. I’ve got some contacts that I’m trying out so the only thing I have to worry about is getting broken bones and new bruises! hooray for battle scars… thank god I haven’t experienced a firefight, I’d probably get myself killed because I’ve watched way too many movies… the good guys don’t always live… then again, the sarcastic guy always meets an untimely death with a quick whitty phrase… if only I could be so lucky

hooray for the elepsis!

This link goes nowhere, click on it if you’re bored!

http://www.defiantone.com

I told you, I’m unpopular! nobody has a tag on their page… damn I’m bored

I’ve never known how to deal with people that are making fun of me when I don’t know them very well. We all give eachother a fair amount of crap at work but when I don’t know somebody its a very different situation. A few days ago some guys from another shop were over here and started giving me crap about something… it felt like I was in high school again and all I wanted to do was kill them all. There was a knot the size of a bowling ball in the middle of my chest and all I wanted to do was explode… if only I could deal with it all better

I’ve been keeping my mouth shut (more often) lately in a bid to be a more pleasant individual. I’m still sticking to it… lets hope the trend can last